katelw

I'm lost but hopefully not forgotten.
Life seems cold, cruel and lonley, it seems like i'm the one here watching the world go by, while everyone else knows where they are. Some are happy, some have found love friend and their path, while others have had to face the harsh reality of life, they know how cold and cruel this world is. But each and everyone of us will eventually know that it'll all be worth it in end, that there is a reason for everything, and that it will all come together, we just have to wait and see, life is journey not the destination, we are just along for the ride.

I always think we are not doing enough, as watch the news and hear about the natural disasters that have hit and the rise in food and fuel prices, i wounder are we doing enough?
We are partly to blame, we shooved the politution into the atmosphere cut down forests, hunted animals to the verge of extintion, so what can we do now?
Is it too late? I prey it is not I hope we have time to try and change things make things better for our children and their children. We have used and abused our planet, we have used it like she is some giant suppermarket without thinking of the consequences, so we should act now.
We are yes, we are recycling, paying more tax and so on but is this enough? I know i can talk right what am i doning about this other than moaning about it, i like so many others lead a busy life, i have a full time job an dfind it hard to find the time, but i do recycle i walk to work and to town, I don't drop litter, but really is this enough, more has to be done, the right people have to take notice and see what's going on in the world around them. It is our resposibilty this planet has given us so much and we have taken so much now its time to give her something back, because in a few years time the only animals we are going to see are those in zoo's and it shouldn't be that way, we have to do more I have to do more, other than moan.

To be bird, to be able to go anywhere you want, without worrying about the cost or what you leave behind.
To be a bird, to feel the wind in your hair as fly through the sky.
To be a bird, to be free, to spread your wings and fly away, and not have a care in the world.

Smile
The world sucks, nothing goes right
but a smile can make your day that much bearable
A smile can say a thousand words
a smile can hide a thousand pains
so even though you feel down smile because that smile can at least lighten up some elses day
and in the end it makes you feel better
smile.

I'm not much of a poet but i've had this in my head for a while, and i've decided to share it, so just smile.

I don't know where i'm going, or what i'm supposed to do. I just do what everyone else tells me to do, and in doing that i've forgotten my dreams.
I wnated to write but it never happened, i was told i wan't smart enough and that stuck with, so i left that dream behind in the barrel of forgotten dreams. But my main dream was to help people, and i guess i will be doing that with my new job, but i'm not entirely sure this job is right for me, i should just wait and see what happens.
We all have dreams and we all should try and live them but in todays life they get left behind, we have more pressing concerns, bills to pay, buying a new home, to support the people in our lives, because of everything we have to deal with we forget where WE want to be and what WE want to do, and shouldn't be like this, should it?

Last week i had a job interview, the interview didn't go so well at all. I was nervous my mind went blank, and i couldn't answer the questions, that i clearly knew the answers to. But today i found out that i got the job.
I can't believe it, i'm shocked, but its good news, a new career, more money, the money is really good, so its a new start for me. But i will be sorry to leave my other job, i like the people i work with, it'll be sad. But i still can't believe i got the job, i just hope i can do it...

I'm so happy, i've got my money back to today. but i'm still angry at how they mange to steal it in the first place because what ives them the right to take things from people that doesn't belong to them.
But i have had it back which is a good thing beacsue i needed that money i haven't really got anything left well until today anyway so i'm in a good mood now.
On a different note i've just posted an application form for another job, and hopefully i get it, don't get me wrong i do like my current job. i like the people i work with and i've made some good friends there, but the hours and the money are crap so i need something else hopefully this is it.

Last week i tried to used my card but it was declined, that was embarrasing, but i knew i had money in the bank, not much mind you but i knew there was something in there. I went to the bank took out a statement i found that i had -£138 in there. I told the clerk at the bank she looked up my details and she told me my card had been cloned.
Someone had taken £226 out of my account and put me in the red, so i had to pay back the £138, i was so angry when i found out that someone had stolen from me and spent my money, who the hell do they think they are? If they haven't got any money get a job then, but instead of doing this they prey on hard working people and steal of them and basicily leave them with nothing and i debt with the bank, i hope they enjoyed spending my money, i hope they get caught and have to pay every penny back.
But that is doubtful right will they get caught? proberly not. It makes me so angry, to think that someone stole from me without any concern for the victim, all i can say is what comes around goes around.

From today i'm looking for a new job, i got my wage slip today and it was rubbish, especaily since all the hours i've pit in. Really i've been looking for a new job for months now and i've still come up empty handed.
I've been in the same place for three years now, which doesn't help, employers want someone with a little more experience than i've got, but how are you supposed to get this experience when they won't give you the job in the first place, its stupid, infuriating. But all i've to do is send of my C.V. and wait for replys and stay in my current job earning buttons basicly, no one can really live on what i earn, so lets just hope someone will give the opportuinty.